To be on stage

I walk out onto the catwalk style stage of the club I'm currently at. The mood is different depending on the crowd's disposition and the number of people watching me. I used to get really panicky, but now I do a stupid little dance before I walk up the stage on to the catwalk to calm my nerves. The stage lights can be blinding. I walk up to the first pole, hook my leg around and do a spin. I make sure I have an air of determination about me, but also a but of a wry little smile. I try to keep it light when I'm up there. This is part of my appeal. I'm not a scary intimidating super model style stripper. I'm happy go lucky. I want everyone to have a good time. I love being the center of attention when I'm on stage. Where else can I get a hundred men to pay attention to just ME. It feels good to be adored. Sometimes, I fuck up when I'm up there. My shoe will slip out from underneath me, I'll smack my knee on the pole. My knee will give out while I'm doing floor work. I laugh it off, no matter how much pain is involved. Keep up the fantasy, you little class clown. Sometimes, I'll play games with the customers, football. They get rewarded with a titty kiss, also known as a motor boat. It's so difficult to describe the feeling of power one gets from being naked on stage. Have I ever felt degraded? Sure, When some asshole throws a quarter up or yells a stupid comment. But most of the time I feel like a goddess, in control, the little people are in awe of me. They are lucky to be able to glance upon my luscious curves. You gotta keep it that way. You gotta keep it that way or you will lose your mind and yourself to fear and self doubt. There's nothing worse to see on a strip club stage than a terrified woman, not knowing what the fuck to do. That kind of shit makes me cringe. It makes me cringe because 2 years ago, that woman was me. In transformed this terrifying experience into an empowering one.