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i am the kind of person that doesn't articulate her feelings very well and ends up upsetting or pissing off other unintentionally a LOT. when i was living in buffalo, this never seemed to bother anyone. people knew what i meant when i said it and everything was cool. in philly people seem to take what i say as the worst possible thing it could mean. i'm starting to think that people communicate differently in the great snowy north as opposed to east coast cities, particularly philadelphia. i have angered people and ended friendships over the last two years totally unintentionally because i've explained things "the wrong way". it's very frustrating because it makes me feel mildly alienated and i can't seem to unlearn the way i speak.

things are weird at the club. since i put on a few extra pounds, my clients have changed. during the week we are painfully dead and during the weekend i don't even have time to stop for a cigarette. i burned myself out last week then proceeded to spend all the money on clothes and dance gear. i try to rationalize the dance purchases as furthering my career. i got one really gorgeous violet dress that is probably going to be my new go-to outfit. it covers enough that i could wear it to a party, but is just so damn sexy. when alex and i went shopping at the good stripper store there were all kinds of gowns that made me wish i worked at one of the nice gentleman's clubs. but i can't seem to leave the one i'm at because i'm way too comfortable.

i know i promised hair pictures. i'll try to remember my camera to take to work tonight. i'll give you guys some sick myspace angles.