2/21/09

when the days all start to feel like the same, when i need to escape the club after only 5 hours, when i find myself alienated from everyone outside the world of the club, when i don't even have the drive to write on here, i know i've reached severe burnout mode. every few months this happens, usually when i schedule myself for 6 days a week. my stage shows, my fake voice and personality, my kindness towards people i would never give time to outside the club seem second nature, monotonous, like i'm going through the motions but i'm not really there. these are the times when i barely can drag myself from my little seat in the dressing room, hunched over smoking cigarette after cigarette, mumbling responses to the other dancers when they talk to me or ask to borrow something.


next month, it won't be this way. things will start to get busier, i scheduled a few fridays off as well as my usual wednesdays. i'll feel like writing again and people will have some words to keep them occupied. (promises, promises haha)